It was fun while it lasted...
Its a shame that things dont work out for the better. I decided today to be friends with a girl I have been dating for awhile. I got my hopes up, but things just arent working out between us. Its hard to believe how something that started out so great in the beginning stalls out in the end. It just wasnt meant to be. I was excited because this was the first girl to come along in a long time that I thought I could be serious with. Apparently, she wasn't ready for the serious relationship she said she was ready for, at least not with me.
I guess Im just a little bit worried that I wont find the girl Im looking for. Everyone says stop looking and thats when they come. Well I gave up looking awhile ago. Im going to play it a little cooler next time and not get my hopes up. Maybe a little more pessimistic, maybe a little more cynical. Its times like these that I wonder if Im capable of having a romantic relationship at all. Then I remember all the great times Ive had in the past, and I become more accepting of the fact that sometimes,... things just werent meant to be.
p.s. a little after this post I talked to her on the phone for about half an hour. I guess I put her on the spot about how she didnt say what her thoughts and feelings were and she said some things she probably didnt want to say. she basically said she just goes with the flow and we were nothing more then friends from the beginning. and you know what, it no longer hurts, it just makes me mad people wont talk openly about this stuff. granted, I probably made a bigger deal out of it then I should have but, I had to know how things could change so drastically from the beginning. Guess our intentions and expectations werent clear and didnt match up at all. its a shame. I wish I could go more with the flow, but in my opinion it doesnt work. Relationships are intentional. Shes of the opinion that relationships go best when things just flow. I cant totally disagree with her, but if you're going to date someone and then you just want to be friends you should at least say something and not just continue letting things flow. It leaves the other person confused and a little hurt when they are expecting a relationship to go one way, and the other person is headed in another. Ok. Im done, but it will take some time to let it go completely. >:-<
I guess Im just a little bit worried that I wont find the girl Im looking for. Everyone says stop looking and thats when they come. Well I gave up looking awhile ago. Im going to play it a little cooler next time and not get my hopes up. Maybe a little more pessimistic, maybe a little more cynical. Its times like these that I wonder if Im capable of having a romantic relationship at all. Then I remember all the great times Ive had in the past, and I become more accepting of the fact that sometimes,... things just werent meant to be.
p.s. a little after this post I talked to her on the phone for about half an hour. I guess I put her on the spot about how she didnt say what her thoughts and feelings were and she said some things she probably didnt want to say. she basically said she just goes with the flow and we were nothing more then friends from the beginning. and you know what, it no longer hurts, it just makes me mad people wont talk openly about this stuff. granted, I probably made a bigger deal out of it then I should have but, I had to know how things could change so drastically from the beginning. Guess our intentions and expectations werent clear and didnt match up at all. its a shame. I wish I could go more with the flow, but in my opinion it doesnt work. Relationships are intentional. Shes of the opinion that relationships go best when things just flow. I cant totally disagree with her, but if you're going to date someone and then you just want to be friends you should at least say something and not just continue letting things flow. It leaves the other person confused and a little hurt when they are expecting a relationship to go one way, and the other person is headed in another. Ok. Im done, but it will take some time to let it go completely. >:-<
posted by Jeremy at 5:07 PM
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