Excitement

Im entering a rather weird time in my life. Sort of feels like the calm before the storm. In my mind, I envision myself in a large area, its rather dark, like twilight is coming, with glints of light coming from a distance. And Im walking on water. It is silent except for my steps which make the smallest sound. Right then left. Like being born maybe.
Its so hard to explain but I feel like Im barely grasping onto life. Like life is just coming into vision. Things are just starting to form. The edges are barely being made out. Im finally feeling what it means to be alive.
The vistas are opening up and I see the possibilities. The world is wide open to me and I can do anything. Im gaining this quiet sense of satisfaction with life in general. Its beautiful.
Im also becoming more fierce about protecting those special times. Work was overwhelming me for awhile. I realized I needed more balance. I was dead set on going backpacking come hell or highwater. and I did. now that has spilled over to protecting other areas in life that are important to me. I didnt run a marathon I had wanted to run back in June and Im disappointed in myself for that. It was getting my priorities straight that made the difference.
Contentment, wherever Im at. Even though Im constantly searching for something new Im truly content wherever I land. Maybe I dont want to be content. I love everything new. If I didnt have anything new to look forward to, then my life wouldnt be complete.
Ah, that word complete. It seems to be a theme lately. Perhaps I want completeness less then I think. Or what I really want isnt what I need. Or what I think I need isnt that at all. I echo others sentiments.
If you understood this blog, feel free to comment. If not, ask me to explain it to you. I imagine most of you will get it. ;-)