I dont want to grow up

Its sad but true. I am scared to death of all the work that is ahead for me in my life, and being unsure if I can still be a healthy minded individual if I dont find somethign that at least keeps me interested long term.
Money issues keep creeping up on me too. I hate debt. If I have any advice to anyone, its be fanatical about staying out of debt. I hate the fact that I live month to month, paycheck to paycheck just to make ends meet, and the mountain of debt never seems to go away. bills, bills, bills. I guess the stress is added on by the fact that I have a commision based job that never allows me the ability to stop hammering away at aquiring new business. If I slow up just a bit, I suffer down the road. Its tough. Its teaching me a lesson the hard way.
My living expenses have gone way up and I have no slack to try and leapfrog to the next thing. I didnt get a paycheck for 2 months to start this job, and its showing. I cant catch back up it seems. It hurts. It really is a feeling of helplessness that I have never felt before.
Well to look on the bright side. Im an escape artist and very resourceful. Ill find my way out eventually. Sometimes I wish I would have just stayed at hertz. But then I look back, and I wonder what life would have been like without taking on this job. I now have the courage to start my own business. I dont think I would have if I stayed at hertz. Courage. Its what we all need to survive. Some need it more then others. Courage defines my life more then anything now. Its time to buck up and fight with everything I got. At least thats what it feels like. ;-)
Please feel free to comment on how this time in your life feels and how you are coping, or overcoming...