Juror #9

So I was a juror for a few days this week, and I turned out to be an alternate, which means I got to see the presentation of evidence, testimony, and opening and closing statements, but didnt get to deliberate with the other jurors. They gave the guy a verdict of not guilty. I wish I was there to see it. It was a bit of a let down.
On the flip side, the backpacking trip was awesome. I wish I could have stayed out there even longer. We had our ups and downs, literally..., but all in all I think everyone had a great experience and most want to do it again.
Anyhow, Im not much in the mood to write, but its 3am and I cant sleep. Too many thoughts on the mind about work, about dating, about balancing my social life, about making things work. Too bad no one is on IM to talk to. *sigh*
You know, sometimes you just say to yourself..., "if only this, this, and this happens my life would be complete." ha! I know its so wrong to think that, but thats what Im thinking right now. when did jeremy ever want his life to be complete? lol. sometimes you just gotta pause and enjoy the moment. man, Im trying to do that. really! and heres the but. but, im accomplishment oriented. relationships arent one time deals that you accomplish and then move on among other things. ive treated them that way for too long and hurt a lot of people in the process. now it looks like im setting myself up to be the one that gets hurt. as forrest gump would say, "Thats about all I got to say about that".