Coming to Terms

Yeah, Im coming to terms with the fact that I am a VERY hard person to get to know. To most people it doesn't matter too much because they only want to get to know me on a certain level. Romantic relationships on the other require that you get to know a person VERY well. Its not easy getting to know someone. It takes time and effort. Things I know but I learn more and more everyday just how hard it can be. Ive said for awhile now that I need a wife who is a mind reader. ;-)
Its not that I dont want people to know me. Its that I have trouble expressing who I am inside. It hurts when the people I want to know and understand me most have trouble getting to know me. I want to help people get to know me better but I dont even know where to begin. And this also worries me because maybe I dont know people as well as I think I know people. Ive never really had an issue with getting to know someone. I feel like I can understand most people, but am I wrong? Am I only touching the surface most of the time? What makes one person feel like they can't know another person? Why do people perceive me as so guarded? Am I really?
These are just questions running through my mind. I dont wanna feel like Im distant from someone simply because they feel like Im distant from them. Yes, I can be in my only little world sometimes... most of the time..., but Im a thinker. Thats who I am. If you cant understand that then maybe you arent meant to know me better. And thats a shame because I want to know you better. hmmm. Help me help you. Thats all I ask.

Disclaimer: This is in no way directed to the reader of this blog. Think of it as a conversation overheard.