I wanna explode

Im a confused jumble of emotions and thoughts right now. I havent been home since Lindsays wedding and things seem way too..... normal. It feels soooo normal to be here its strange. I just had dinner with my mom's side of the family, my grandma, aunts, uncles, and cousins. Chad, has got his business up and running and has just hired another employee. Im so proud of him. He said he saw over $200,000 go through his hands last year, but he sure as hell didnt make that much. In a few years he will be pretty well off but building that business is tough.
Im going to basically start my own painting business with this company. I think it will be good training for me and a good step toward owning my own business. Ron still has hopes that Ill help manage his company when it gets going. I still plan on helping Jason get his recording studio going, and hopefully our own band and a record label. I also might get back into personal training.
Anyhow, thats besides the point. I guess I just feel a little detached. As you can see, Im having trouble sorting it all out. For the first time in a long time, I want to be able to love someone again. I want to own my own business. I wanna be free to pursue the things in life I want to do. I wanna see the world, and not be stuck in one place all the time. I wanna feel, I dont want my senses dulled. I wanna feel alive, not "just livin". I wanna talk about more then the weather. I wanna have courage and hope, and I wanna be around those people who have great hope and courage. I dont want to be around people who are afraid and have no hope. I hate it.
God I wanna help people live more courageous lives and help myself live a more courageous life filled with hope, freedom, joy and love. Dont you?>

I Jumped

Copper Mountain was a blast. Man, its tough to go skiing atfer you havent done it in a long time. It came back to me though. My friend Tim had his friend Jeff come with us, and he took us on some crazy stuff. Neither of us had been to Copper before but its a cool place to go. Jeff snowboards and does some of the harder runs. He took us off a few cliffs. I still cant get used to those moguls. Im fine on long open runs but moguls are tough.
Anyhow, the highlight of the day was going down this back bowl. Basically we went were few people go and jumped off this cliff down into powder. Oh man, it was sweet. Ive never been in powder like that before really. I fell twice on that run but both times it was because my skis dug in too deep. The second time I didnt want to get back up cause the powder was a soft cushy bed to me and I was soo tired at that point. Its one of those things were you had the be there, and its scary looking. I wouldnt have done it if Jeff didnt lead the way and I cant say I know anyone else crazy enough to do it right now.
Its pays to take a chance, seize an opportunity, live to make the day great. I have to tell you that when I was walking up there I almost wanted to turn around, and when I got there I definitely wanted to turn around, but once I committed to it I had sooo much fun, and it was unbelievable. I hope this job turns out the same. Im scared as hell right now to be going on straight commission, straight performance, but I know I gotta do it. Being scared is all right. I just need the courage and committment to follow through and make it into the great thing I know it can be. So here's to being scared.

Scared to Jump

I was thinking yesterday how its kinda scary to be going to a job without a steady paycheck, just commission based on how much business you can bring in. I may not have liked working at Hertz, but it allowed me to bring in more money then I needed so I could pay off debt. But my debt only really consists of my Jeep right now so I guess I cant complain.
Its just now setting in that I have 3 more days at Hertz then Im done. My city manager said she is going to hate me now, but good luck. lol. She is such a riot. I fly home for a week, then I have a week of training in Ft. Collins, then I gotta really gotta get to work or I cant feed myself. haha. Crazy huh. I do have some money saved up so it wont be bad.
I talked to a friend of mine Jen at church today and she was encouraging. She has a similar personality to mine and she is talking about starting her own events planning business or being a like a freelance publicist for a record label or something. She is headed to Nashville in April for this conference with a friend who lives in the OC, and works for Tooth & Nail, and hopes to get some work started there. I wished her luck, and told her she needs to be my publicist when I get my gig going. Whats so sad is that I know enough people to start a band, a record label, and a recording company, yet I havent really made any true moves toward it. Jason, when you get out here we gotta make it happen.
Anyhow, Im going skiiing at Copper Mountain tomorrow so I gotta get ready. Peace....

Differences

Thats what makes us what we are. Im happy to be back after a brief sabbatical from the blogging community. Life is good. Went to Mat Kearney's concert at The Garage last Thursday. He didnt have his band with him but it was free and it turned out all right. We also got free pizza sponsored by WAY FM. This Saturday we went bowling and had a great time. It was Tom and I with our gay friends, their friends who happen to be a bi-racial couple, a couple from church we know, one of whom is more or less a computer nerd with his artistic wife, and one of the counselors from camp who is going into social work. And the great thing was, despite Tom fearing the worst, is that we all had a blast, and everyone said we should do this more often. I rest my case, we should party more, laugh more, drink to our health more. ;-)
Im excited to come home and even more excited to start my new job. I got off work early today and I got so much done. You would be amazed what you can do with an extra hour or two. I also got to talk to Jen from home today which made me really happy. She is either going to go and be a success making music or move to Hawaii, so we shall see. lol.
Anyhow, Jason I have to meet her, and yes we must go to Wings, Suds, and Spuds! Momma, Im coming HOME!!!

Book Review

I haven't read a great book in a long time, but The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell is an excellent read for anyone interested in psychology and seeing things in a different perspective. The back cover reads, "The Tipping Point is that magic moment when an idea, trend, or social behavior crosses a threshold, tips, and spreads like widefire." Its a fascinating book based on some of the most compelling research studiesa done to date. Check out my related article in Thee Olde Idea Factory for one of my ideas that sprung from reading this book. Pick it up and ready it today. ;-)

I got the job!

Its with a company called Mcguyver Painting. Its an initial pay cut, but Ill eventually be making a lot more there then at Hertz. Plus, I won't have to work those long hours on a normal basis, an I totally get to set up my own schedule. Ill have to hire and be in charge of a marketing team, and 1 or more painting crews. My typical day will be visiting the job sites talking with those customers and making sure everything is going ok. I'll be making sure the marketing team is doing their best and Ill be taking any leads they get from their canvassing in different neighborhoods and calling the potential customers to set up times to give them an estimate on their paint job, and scheduling a time that the paint crew can go paint their house.
Wow that was a run-on sentence. lol. Anyhow, I start officially on March5th and I can't wait. Im still trying to decide how much time off Im going to take between quiting Hertz and starting this new job, if any. We shall see. Ciao!

oh, here we go again.

I just had my second interview today and Ill find out whether I will be getting a new job here by tonight. We are going to see Russ do his comedy act tonight. I cant wait, this is something we have been looking forward to. I saw my friend Jay today. He was the one of the other camp counselors. We had breakfast and talked alot. He is a very intelligent guy. He loves the outdoors and plan on getting his Ph.D. Anyhow, he said something that struck me and here I post it for you. ;-) He said, "Science is my passion and teaching is my priority." It just made me think about how I could focus my life on the things that really matter. He is also a very understanding individual. I showed him my Jeep and he talked about the times when he had his Jeep and went 4-wheeling. I cant wait for summer and I cant wait till Jason gets here.
Lastly, I guess I want to say that my passion is enjoying life to the fullest and my priority is accomplishing that the best way that I can. What is your passion and priority???