The suspense is....
I did my last interview today and I believe it went extremely well. I have so many emotions invested into getting this job that I don't know what I will do if I don't get it. I have faith in God that this is the way I am meant to go, but I guess my faith doesn't reach to 100% like I wish it was. I still have my lingering doubts. It reinforces the notion that faith in the power of God has more to do with Gods will then what our earthly logic and reasoning allows us to believe. Really, its not logical that I get this job. Its not logical that I happened to be in the right place at the right time. Its not logical that all my needs will be provided for in abundance. And to whom much is given much wil be expected. I will have that much more of an ability to give back the gifts which God has given me for His loving service.
As always, I read articles wherever and I stumbled across a good one that I took this quote from. "Finding your personal mission starts by identifying the need to which you are repeatedly drawn, the societal problem you most want to see fixed, the human sorrow your gifts might help relieve. Your life's irreducible purpose is found at the intersection of your specific gifts and the needs your life's work will address." Answering that question is something we all need to do. We can't just live our lives on a whim. We need purpose, we need to follow the passion that God has instilled in our hearts. I think one of my biggest missions is to help people find the passion God has instilled in their hearts. And encourage them to let it out. I really don't know exactly what capacity I will do it in, but I know that I have been doing it when I feel Gods leading in my life. I know I have helped encourage alot of people to follow their passions and I pray I will continue to have a greater capactiy to do so again in the future.
All in all, I am still searching for the exact purpose God has for me in His will, but I see the pieces coming together so beautifully that I cant deny the workings of God in my life. Its can be scary though. Its like that trust exercise where you close your eyes and fall backward hoping that the people behind you will catch you and you will be safe. It takes trust. And I have to admit that I haven't put my 100% trust in Him. I have let my fears get the best of me. But as for this job, I am all in. Once again, I honestly dont know what I will do if I dont get this job because everything in my life seems to have been leading up to this point. Im so excited to get started. Its not easy, but Im trying to lean wholly on God and not on my own understanding. Ah, that one verse makes me rest easy because I know God has me in His hand.
Anyhow, time to get some sleep and get some painting done tomorrow. ;-)
As always, I read articles wherever and I stumbled across a good one that I took this quote from. "Finding your personal mission starts by identifying the need to which you are repeatedly drawn, the societal problem you most want to see fixed, the human sorrow your gifts might help relieve. Your life's irreducible purpose is found at the intersection of your specific gifts and the needs your life's work will address." Answering that question is something we all need to do. We can't just live our lives on a whim. We need purpose, we need to follow the passion that God has instilled in our hearts. I think one of my biggest missions is to help people find the passion God has instilled in their hearts. And encourage them to let it out. I really don't know exactly what capacity I will do it in, but I know that I have been doing it when I feel Gods leading in my life. I know I have helped encourage alot of people to follow their passions and I pray I will continue to have a greater capactiy to do so again in the future.
All in all, I am still searching for the exact purpose God has for me in His will, but I see the pieces coming together so beautifully that I cant deny the workings of God in my life. Its can be scary though. Its like that trust exercise where you close your eyes and fall backward hoping that the people behind you will catch you and you will be safe. It takes trust. And I have to admit that I haven't put my 100% trust in Him. I have let my fears get the best of me. But as for this job, I am all in. Once again, I honestly dont know what I will do if I dont get this job because everything in my life seems to have been leading up to this point. Im so excited to get started. Its not easy, but Im trying to lean wholly on God and not on my own understanding. Ah, that one verse makes me rest easy because I know God has me in His hand.
Anyhow, time to get some sleep and get some painting done tomorrow. ;-)
posted by Jeremy at 9:55 PM
1 Comments:
Interesting, I posted something along the same lines a little while ago, but at the same time I'm finding myself still confused and not understanding where my life should be going or where I belong....
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