The Newness

I have just written two new songs pretty much in the same day. Im so happy. I havent written a new song in awhile and now 2!. One is really great and the other one is good but needs some work I think. I cant wait for Jason to get out an for him to get the recording studio up and running. I also cant wait for Tom to buy a drumset. He pinky sweared with me he would get one, but I dont know if he really wants to spend the money on it right now. I really hope to get a great band going soon.
Not much other news execpt that its snowing again. I cant believe it. This is putting me so far behind schedule. I hate it. I just gotta deal I guess. Well I gotta get going. Talk to ya laters...

End of an Era

This time marks the end of an era. It all started when I finished writing in my journal this past week. It is my 5th journal over ten years and now I will start on my sixth. Finishing the last page in my journal always seems to uncanningly coincide with a change in pace or a change in place. I finished my 4th journal when I got out here. I finished my third when I graduated college. I finished my 2nd when I moved into an apartment for the first time. I finished my first when I graduated high school.
This time Im a business professional looking to buy a house. I have a great friend moving out here to stay, and Im in a job I plan on keeping for more then a year. Turning 25 is truly the time we seem to be turning ourselves into adults.
Some things have changed, some haven't. I still hate wal-mart (that pit of hell). I was there the other day and vowed never to return again when I watched an ugly lady with 15 items go through the 10 items or less line in front of me! Argh. Im taking up fiddle lessons next week. And for the perhaps the first time in my life Im taking responsibility for myself and others on a more or less fulltime basis. Being a manager of people is the best of times and the worst of times but overall I see my growth. I see my confidence in my abilities and I know my talents are best used in circumstances such as this.
Something else has changed. My travel bug has diminished. I have other more pressing goals. I see it returning soon nontheless. I have more focus now then ever. My one minded goal is to succeed in this business like no other. I still love the mountains dearly but they have lost their alure like all things material. Im excited to spend time there this summer to be free, but they arent an all consuming purpose like last summer.
Im still cocky as hell, ever unsatisfied with myself, and cheap. At least thats what Tom calls it. I tend to call it frugal. All in all though Im still that same old G. ;-) Peace out!

Speaking of Bono...

I got to go to a U2 concert last night at the Pepsi Center. It was so great. My friend got tickets and asked me to go for free. How can u pass that up? They played a lot of my favorites including Its a Beautiful Day. Cant let it get away. ;-)
I started painting this week. So far so good. Rain has a set us back a bit but not much. I kinda planned for it. This is more responsibility Ive ever had I believe. Hertz gave a me a lot of responsibility but in all reality Im way more responsible for things in this job. Its all me. If I dont make it happen no one else will.
Its sunny right now and I cant wait till I get a chance to head to the mountains. I have one week planned to take off and go on an extended hiking/camping trip in the mountains in July. I cant wait. I need some precludes.
Two months from now is my marathon. It is soo hard to fit training into my schedule right now and I hate it. This is my third day not running and for the most part Ive been training everyday. I need to get back on the horse by tomorrow for sure.
Lastly, Im taking a fiddle class starting in May. Ill let you know how that goes. Have fun!

Its a Beautiful Day!

IM listening to U2 right now. I love that band, wish I could be just like Bono. We got about 8 inches of snow yesterday. It was sooo cool. literally. We actually got more then that but it was melting pretty quick. I love it, April and its snowing.
Gosh, I feel like I have nothing to write about. Ive been mostly just working. Toms dad is here which is pretty cool. We've gone out to eat a couple times. He is a cool guy. So now both our dads have been out here. My mom is supposed to come out here in June I think and my sister might come too. It'll be great to have them out here.
I guess the only other thing I have to talk about is that Im using my new found freedom to pursue some things which I want. Namely, music and training for another marathon and eventually a triathlon. I havent really written any more songs but I have been perfecting my style. I also plan on taking a fiddle class starting next month. Im excited for that.
With training for my marathon Im doing amazingly well. Or should i say surprisingly well compared to last year. Last year I struggled with a 10 minute mile over marathon distance. Now Im looking at maintaining an 8 minute mile and my goal is to break the 4 hour mark. Im pretty excited about that too.
I dont know what I would do without my extracurricular activities. Doing one thing has never been enough and Im afriad will never be enough for me. I need variety. Badly sometimes. Well I must go. Peace...

Creating Meaning

More and more I realize that most of the time meaning is created rather then found. By this I mean that people are searching for meaning in their lives all the time and never finding it, yet people who arent searching find meaning in mostly unexpected events. They assign meaning to events and circumstances and thereby find meaning in everything that happens to them.
I hear and read many stories during the course of any day. One I just read involved a woman who had breast cancer and recovered from it and is now running a non-profit she started up to help cancer patients better cope through laughter. She also commits half of her funds to cancer research. She had a corporate marketing job and made a conscience decision to make this more meaningful and thereby more important in her life. We all prioritize, its just sad to see those people who dont see their own priorities.
Here is a new blog for you all as well. Occupational Adventure Its fairly good and worth checking out.
When I say Im becoming clearer on my life's purpose and meaning Im saying that I am understanding the priorities I had all along and how I can create new priorities in my life. In other words, how I can assign meaning to the things I do and how I live. I live and I do a thing because it means something to me. It doesnt matter whether it matters a lot or a little as long as it means "something". And that something is what we are all trying to find, but I believe more and more everyday that you have to create that "something" or you will have nothing.