Post Easter MMV

The days go ever quicker. My I have a lot of free time now to ponder harder. This Easter was rather unusual for me. Its been my first Easter ever spent away from my family and certainly the first ever spent on a mountain. Vail mountain that is, all by myself, surrounded by hundreds of other skiers and snowboarders. Seemed like any other day. The powder was fresh and the sky was blue. A bit on the warm side which made it a tad cornish later in the day but you couldnt ask for much more this late in the season.
I returned my skis today and I was contemplating buying a hugely marked down set of either skis or a snowboard. Right now I can get a tight set for under $500. Huge temptation! Its such an expensive sport that Im not sure if Im ready to commit that kinda of money along with a nice expensive ski pass to indulge in it. But nows the time if ever I guess.
Business has been going slow but steady. I booked my first job last Saturday and I already have 7 estimates lined up for this week. Things are going well. For me this is a good business to be in. Im looking forward to starting a few more, including my own music and film production studio, my own resturant, and possibly my own development company. All in good time I guess.
Thats me. Plan my work, and work my plan, and play as much as humanly possible! lol. I play guitar in spurts for the most part anymore and this week marked a high in a spurt. I sang my heart out today and almost made myself hoarse. lol. I also watched the movie Ray just a little while ago. Great movie, must see if you havent. Anyhow, I get more confident in my ability everytime I give my all.
Its just like skiing. I went down some slopes I never would have imagined going down last year, and I even skied through a forest. Almost killed myself but you live and you learn. God, life is good.
Yes I will always be an explorer never satisfied with my current level of attainment. Guess you all better get used to that cause thats who I am. But you knew that already. ;-) haha, well its off to bed for me. Its going to be a long day tomorrow starting off with a morning run. I bid you adieu...

The Death Clock

Supposedly I am going to live until Saturday July 18th, 2065 according to The Death Clock. Only 60 years left to accomplish all I want to accomplish. I better get started then, right?
Here are some links of interesting things to do before we leave this Earth.
this is a good one
for outdoor lovers only
for all kinds of sports/extreme sports/Olympic lovers
for people in a mid-life crisis
for travel lovers
for those considering retirement
for randomness junkies
for imaginative dweebs
for those of you who would like to actually accomplish the goals you write down for yourself

Now its your turn to make a list. Take a day to make it and a lifetime to refine it. Enjoy!

Is Who I Am Who I Want to Become?

Ive been reading Tony Robbins Awaken the Giant Within, yes Im a sucker for self-help books, but what he has to say is really helpful. What is most surprising is how easy he makes it to change for the better. You see, there are some things in our unconscious that we need to become aware of if we are to change and not keep falling into unproductive habits and patterns. We also have to consciously make decisions that lead to more productivity and instill them into our identity. We have to look closely at out values and the things that shape us into who we are.
You know, Ive gotten such a release as of late. I didn't realize how much I was going down into darker feelings and how much I was letting things affect me until one day Tom told me that I couldn't be the way I was, and I asked why not, and he said thats not who you are. That statement kinda floored me, and my only answer was to come back with a, but thats what you do. And he said thats because I am like that.
Huh, funny how those two words cannot create something so profound. Yes those two words, I AM. It has the ability to keep you as you are, and the ability to change you. I could never call myself a marathon runner until I did it, but you know what words I used many times over. I AM going to run a marathon, so I did.
What are some of your wants? Do you want be a millionaire? Can simply believing that I AM going to be a millionaire make you one? Not really, but it sets you on the right path of what you desire. I wanted to be a athelete. How does one become an athelete? By doing things atheletes do right? Well I told myself that I AM going to become an athelete, and so I did. I said I AM going to run a marathon and I did, I said I AM going to do a Triatholon and I will. I say I AM going to finish the Ironman, and I will. I AM an athelete, therefore I do the things atheletes do.
When people tell me that they are impressed with something I do, all I usually tell them are two words, "I try". And to myself I finish by saying, ...therefore I do.
I AM a DOER, and I keep reminding myself of that so I continue to become a better doer. What do you want to become? Start it all off by saying I AM.

time wraps us along...

the sermon was good this morning. Greek curiosity was the idea and the message was that many people are interested in learning more about the Passion of Christ. Not the movie, but the act of Jesus that leads to our salvation. If a seed is stored it stays but one seed, but if it falls to the ground and dies it becomes many seeds.
my thoughts kept veering away from what the Pastor was saying but it always came back to how we must change and be renewed if we are to stay useful. We must follow our purpose in each and every small way possible. following my passion leads to my purpose...

My new calling, painting...

So Ive been hanging out with Jay up in Greeley this week. Its been a blast. Ive been painting some houses and Im really liking it. Its a good job and pays well. Maybe Ill go to Pittsburgh to be a contractor. Ive meet some awesome people doing this job, all of them other territory managers. Jay is such a fun guy. He was a camp counselor with me this past summer. God I wish I could go be a counselor again with him. He was supposed to go teach at a boarding school in Conn. but is staying here for a girl he met awhile back but has been going out with for 5 months. She has a baby boy as well and is divorced. I just dont understand some people, but he sure got me thinking. Another one of my friends, Kristen, married a guy with 2 kids! So like I said, it got me thinking about how much I would be willing to give up some things for someone.
Anyhow, Im also thinking real hard about sticking with this current trajectory of a career with a few adjustments. I wanna become a building contractor and do it all, build houses. Be a developer I guess. Invest in real estate, get my real estate license. My 3 New fav words, We shall see....... ;-)

Not Convinced Yet

Everytime I go home and come back here the amount of time I spend thinking of moving home dramatically increases. Many people asked me if Im moving back home anytime soon and I how I like Colorado. Its hard to talk about Colorado with people because most dont know anything about it. They dont know what makes it great. Denver is by no means a great city, but its proximity to the mountains makes it a great place to live. Boulder, if you can afford it, and Colorado Springs are much better places to live, including Ft. Collins.
Ive discovered skiing is no fun unless you 1.own skies, 2. have a pass 3. can go alot, meaning at least 10 times a year. You have to get good at skiing to enjoy skiing. Colorado also offers unparrelled hiking, biking, and camping in wide open spaces. I dont get to enjoy these enough either. Im so thinking of being a camp counselor again and being extremely poor and deep in debt! The other thing that sucks is that I want to buy a bike, among other things, so I can compete in triathlons, but its soo expensive. Just to get started costs $1000, maybe more. Well eventually more will be spent each year, but its not cheap. I just bought some $90 running shoes, perhaps the most Ive spent on shoes, but I really want good shoes to run in this year. So Im way behind schedule if I want to do a tri this year, maybe I can do one in August or Sept. Otherwise, Ill just do a marathon and maybe some other runs this year. Maybe 2 marathons. Who knows. We shall see.
You either have lots of money, but no time, or lots of time with no money. I met this guy once. He had plenty of money and time. You know what he did. He got bored and came to work for Mcguyver Painting like me. Go figure.
Sunny days like this bring my thoughts of summer out. I cant wait. Ill be a poor mountain bum for at least another year or two. lol. Ah, thats enough for now. Im going for a run. Peace!

What a strange and wonderful trip its been

Im home now in Colorado sitting here eating my oatmeal and getting ready to head up to Ft. Collins to start my new job. Im sooo tired that my eyes are burning. I got only 6 hours sleep last night compared to the 10+ hours I was getting at home. Gosh I needed that trip so bad. The last day my mom said she felt like I just got there, and I told her I basically did. A week is but a breath in time.
My trip home made me realize some things that has given me a new perspective. And what was confusing is now strangely clear. I guess my trip home allowed me to stand back and watch things like a movie. I don't really like the analogy, but I felt like I was director for the film called my life. I feel a lot more in control now. I have such a release and an assurance that things will turn out all right. Life is good.
Needless to say I wish I had one more week at home. So much is going on this week that I am missing. I almost wanted to purposely miss my flight. I had a good talk with two college students going on spring break, actually 3, two on the airplane, and one while I was waiting for my ride. Ill just say it gets kinda weird to have "been there, done that."
A wise man once said intelligence is the ability to make finer distinctions among things, and I feel like Ive made a few finer distinctions in life this past week that has helped given me a new perspective. And for once, I am enjoying the view. Ciao!

This Reunion

I am laughing my head off now talking to my friends from high school, Robbie, and Marcus. I havent seen them in like 6, almost 7 years. Tom is going crazy for this girl Ashley. I dont know what he is going to do. Sarah is coming home in a few months. Jason is coming out to CO. So much is happening I cant believe it.
One person is married and has a kid. The next person is going for his GoldenGloves championship. One person lost his engineering job in Ohio and is living in Sewickly now. One gave his two weeks to work as a car salesman. Like he needed a college degree.
So many people my age are still living at home. I just cant believe it. This world is so different yet still my home that I feel like Im watching a movie. Im overwhelmed by the amount of new info. Im having trouble explaining it all.
In fact, Im so in the movie making mood that Im going to get my actresses together tomorrow to make one. Maybe I should write that script Ive been talking about. Its like everything is right there in front of me and Im just waiting to dig in. Its livid, so real, so tangible, I can taste it. Here I go.

I started an online address book ;-)

Hi

I am using a new service to keep in contact with my friends. Use the link below to become part of my address book. In the future I will be able to see any changes in your contact details.

http://www.bebo.com/friends/8696318a256988775b22

Thanks.

Jeremy