Merry Christmas!!!

Well this is the first Christmas where I didn't open presents with someone Christmas morning. I put my family on speaker phone and we had a three way going between my parents house, Lindsay and Ryans apartment and my place. It was kinda crazy and different, but it makes me love technology even more.
So today I did that, and some laundry and played some guitar. Now Im typing this blog and Im headed up to Greeley to have a little Christmas dinner with Jen Ko before she leaves to go teach English in Korea tomorrow morning. I really hoped to be going rock climbing with her once summer rolled around but I guess that wont be happening.
This is such a time to reflect on the past year, and think about what will happen next year and what decisions Ill make. I miss my family and friends from Pittsburgh alot, and I wish I could move back but I feel like I need to accomplish quite a few things here before I up and leave again. I guess we are all working out the right balance in our lives.
In any case, from me to you through technology, I wish you a Merry Christmas. Cheers!

Since when...?

Since when have my concerns changed from having fun and living the next big adventure to being excited about making enough money to pay my Jeep payment, and bring down my debt. I need you guys to support me in my New Year's resolutions. Ive been reading a lot of magazines at work, and just today I was reading one called Business 2.0. It has all these stories of how people started their businesses and it had one article in particular about how the expansion of Broadband to mid-size towns and rural areas has allowed a lot of people to live much happier, and start businesses much less expensively then in big cities. This world is changing quick and if you don't get yourself in front of the wave you will be left behind and have to wait for the next one. Luckily, another good wave is always coming you just gotta be patient and wait for it.
And to catch those waves you gotta live the life. You gotta put yourself where things are happening and in places you want to be. You gotta be yourself and by being yourself you will find your niche, and by finding your niche you will be a happier and much richer person, if not financially then in the quality of your life.
As the Aussies say, Cheers!

Time for New Years' Resolutions

Yea, Im starting a little early this year so here is my list.
My list:
1. Get a better higher paying, more flexible job. This is in the works. I might accomplish this before the year is out.
2. Get into shape. Ill be doing my first triathlon next year. I need to buy a bike, a swim suit, and new running shoes. Ill start swimming in January because its my weakest area, then biking in March, and running in April. Im going to try and do one in August. Wish me luck.
3. Go to school. I havent made a final decision yet, but Im leaning toward going to film school part time. As always with that we shall see.
4. Start a business. Im serious when I say Im going to get back into doing the Tahitian Noni thing. Now that Im in the gym again I really need it for myself and I know that Im a better salesman now then I was, and it will be much easily to sell it out here in health-Conscious Colorado.
5. Go home. I havent gone home anywhere near what Ive wanted to. I need to get home at least three times next year. Ill work it out somehow I hope.
6. Be serious about music and film. Seriously, Ive been slacking because Ive let work and life in general take over, but Im not complete without them. The opportunity is there if Im willing to work hard and improve my skills. I gotta go after my dreams.
7. Seven is a good number so Ill end with this. Pray More. Enough said.

So lets see everyone else's resolutions. And if anyone puts lose weight as one of them, Ill slap them. Seriously. Peace!

God doesn't tell you what to do

gotta go with the gut
you have a mind, a heart, and a gut instinct
not ur heart?
my mind makes me second guess everything, my heart has led me astray, but my gut always seems to be right
I guess you gotta figure it out for yourself
i can only really help point you in the right direction
ok well thanx
i think u should b a writer

Sometimes I just don't have anything to write. Sometimes I do. And sometimes I have things to write but I dont want to write them. Or its just too physically and emotionally hard to write them and put these thoughts and feelings into words. Now is one of those times. So why try?
In times like these I give you anothers words that might more appropiately describe the situation.

"Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide on there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs. Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

this, that, OR the other thing

i keep conconcting these ways to have my career my way. And it always seems to come down to science or art. Sure law and business come in there somewhere, but art and science are the things Im interested in. Technology, invention, creation, beauty. These are the things I love. Can I bring them together? Somehow, someway. So will it be engineering school or film school? You tell me. Vote your choice. Im a republic. haha. no, just kidding. If I go to engineering school I eventually want to make a company where Im a consultant, or where I can take on creative projects more of my choosing. If I go to film school I can start as a director/writer/actor, and eventually get to be a producer and possibly own my own production studio, along with J's music production studio. Wish I would have went to school for engineering from the beginning, but we have to look to the future. Engineering is a bit more secure, film/music is a little more fun and potentially more rewarding. This procrastinator will make a decision someday soon. promise. ;-)

Career of the hour

I was thinking today how cool it would be to do intellectual property law. Patents, trademarks, copyrights, etc. I think its a good mix between the creative fields and the more business oriented fields. And then helping people market their products. That would be bomb diggety. It would go right along with starting a music and film production studio. Engineering school, work as an engineer for awhile while doing the music/film thing, then go back and get my law degree and maybe my MBA. yes, I can do everything gosh darn it.

Responsibility

There comes a time in everyone's life where burdens need to be shouldered, debts need to be paid, things need to be taken care of. Its called responsibility and for the eternal child it is no walk in the park. I dont know whats wrong with me, but for some reason, at this time in my life, Im very willing to assume some responsibilities. Its my only driving force sometimes it seems. Maybe everythings right with me, but I see so many people just unwilling to accept responsibility for their actions. Thats why we have laws and insurance.
Time for the stupid story of the day. So I hear a lot of car stories working the business that I do, and I just heard about a guy who drove his Lincoln Navigator for about 21000 miles without getting an oil change since about 5000. Needless to say he is paying for a new engine out of pocket which is going to cost him 9000 bucks. The engine simply said no more and seized up. Now is this taking responsibility for your actions or not? I think its gross negligence, but hey, thats me. He also had free oil changes for goodness sake! I cant believe it!
Responsibility is more than making smart choices, its also about making painful ones. More action, then reaction. Making a decision based on whats right rather then whats easy, deciding on whats best instead of just ok. Ive failed this task multiple times but I want to get better. I hope experience is teaching me to be better. I hope I can be responsible enough to go for everything I want out of life and not complain when I dont get it because of impatience, laziness, negligence, stupidity... you get the point.
All men die, not all men truly live...

I got these plans, see...

I go back and forth too much: I want to do music, I wanna do business, I wanna do law, I wanna do film, I wanna do engineering, I want to do politics. I cant decide! I could probably do it all if I would just start now though I guess. I think maybe going to school for engineering now while pursuing music and film on the side is the best bet, while later in life I can get my law degree and do more things on the business, law, politics side. And I can also teach at a university. Those three months of for summer is a tantalizing idea but I simply dont want to teach high school. So we shall see.....

Whats Wrong

I sometimes feel like my life is going nowhere. Why do I dream big dreams? Why am I tossed back and forth by the waves in the sea? Why am I so cold and lonely. Why am I sad? I wish I knew why I was such a frustrated individual, mad at my own fear. Im so angry. Why cant I enjoy life? Im mad at myself for so many opportunities missed. Im sad because Ive missed them. I continue to put myself down when I should be lifted up. I have to change. I need to learn and grow. I need to be strong, for myself. ...because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea blown and tossed by the wind. ... he is an double-minded man, unstable in all he does. He will not receive anything...

The Beginning of the Rat race

So yeah, Im understanding now how everyone is in debt up to their ears and can never get out of it till, oh say a year before they die. It sucks, but its life in this millennium. There seems to be no way to be debt free, as soon as you pay one car off, it breaks down and you need to get another one. You will pay about 50000 dollars just for car insurance alone in your lifetime and thats if you have a good driving record. Life aint cheap.
Anyhow, I figure if I dont go back to school next fall, then it might be a long time before I ever go back, if I do at all. we shall see. One more debt burden. You can never win against debt till the day you die. Go figure. Well thats all for tonight...

Tired, very tired

Whatever man. Music styling to the wholeness beat. Looking out for myself and my health. Gotta quit working 60 hour weeks and getting no sleep, not even am I on a track to wealth. Business is the way to go, cash flow ya know. Cant compete for the guys on the street just want some food to eat. Doctors and Lawyers all know that Professional is the way to go. So do actors and especially athletes who compete. Gotta run far far away and push my limits. Peace!

Signing my life away

So I did. I bought myself a 94' Jeep Wrangler. It is so cool, but Ill let you know how cool it is when I have to start fixing stuff on it. ;-) It has 89k miles on it and I got it for $7000 so it wasnt a bad deal at all. Insurance was pretty cheap for it too which was surprising and when I turn 25 it plummets like a rock. Gotta love that. Magically when you turn 25 suddenly you are a reponsible adult, or something like that. Go figure.
Dont let anyone tell you buying your first car on a couple thousand dollar loan isnt scary. It is scary as all hell. And Im paying like another 1500 on interest alone. Its crazy. Im still afraid the thing will die on me in like a year, but God willing it will last me a long time. I pray. Anyhow, its already past midnight, and I need to get to bed. So goodnight!